got faith?

so many times I wonder why is god so quiet? I know god works in mysterious ways but seriously sometimes I wished he gave me a clear cut answer. Like whenever something happens or when I really need him he seems to be so far away. I know I shouldn't, but I always wonder is he really there? is he really listening to me. I see so many time his awesome works but I wonder " why doesnt this ever happen to me?"

I seem to forget that god has a plan, and that I need to be faithful and believe that his way will be for the best. I know so many people struggle with this and I'm definitely one of them! Im not gonna lie alot of the time I feel like askin " god are you sure you know what youre doin?". and I definitely forget that I need patience! and I need to have faith.

I need to have faith like Abraham. what he did was truly amazing. He trusted and loved god so much that when god requested that he sacrifice his son,his most precious thing, he was willing to with no hesitation.

17 By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac, and he who had received the promises was in the act of offering up his only son(Hebrews 11:17)

His ONE and ONLY son. He had faith in gods plan even if it seemed to be all out of whack. He wasn't afraid of what god planned. He was obedient and trusted him with the thing he valued the most! and in the end gods plan was great.

19 He considered that God was able even to raise him from the dead, from which, figuratively speaking, he did receive him back. (Hebrews 11:19)

God, our father, is truly amazing. Even though we have our downs gods plan is still in motion. He is so amazing! so even if life sucks and things go wrong god provides. He puts things in place for a reason and we should trust in him.

so Father I pray help me understand your plan! help me have faith in the plan. help me have patience in you. but also know that I LOVE YOU :) THANKS!!!!